I have dual personality

Maybe it is better to spill it..........
i am so confused with my life..
many problems,, or everytime is problem for me.. whatever it is it is lways a problem
i am a very easy-to-be-panic girl... a very lazy girl.... and a coward girl sometime...


but on the other hand.. i can be a very optimistic girl... dependable.. and effort-full girl..........

but that second is rarely come up... never show herself again... i dont know... these many problems make me lazier and lazier... i know that i need problems.. but i thin too much problems that i have to face.. until i dont know how to solve them and it makes me crazy and eventually lazy....................
it is absolutely clear that i am STRESS now.. but i dont want to be like this forever.. for the rest of my life.. i have to stand up.. and solve my problems... one by one........
i dont know how.. hmmm maybe i can solve them if i try. God told us that they wont give us more problems taht we are not able to handle... so.. here come may problems........
1. Academic problems:
it is not for some subjects in my major. but for all major!
fine! let solve this!
a. Thermodynamic... i dont think i understand a thing from this thermodynamic.. i never study... well i have time till 4th January at 3 pm... okay... then today is 22nd... i hve 12.5 days left! enough time i think.. Manage the schedule afterward
b. Komputational process... 14 days left!
c. Mass and energy balance, 16 days left!
d. PTK, 13 days left!

okay, then afterward arrange a schedule for them!!


2. Organizational problems
well, i have menwa, nautika, himatek, gamistek,

a. Menwa
DSSP is near! today i have made a good point in order to understand what menwa is and find something there.. good job today tika!
well.. for OJT, i still have to make 3 posters of menwa recruitments.... and also 3 articels... deadline 26 desember! 4 days left! okay arrange the schedule!
For another catchup will be done in DSSP! DSSP 11 january till 18 january!

b. Nautika
It is a very very big problem going here.... oh my gosh! I met kecap today,, and i feel guilty... the only thing that i have to do is just come!! COME COME COME!
give your time...

c. HIMATEK
well... many problems here too,,,
a. Documentary movie... Deadline 26 January!!
organize that!!!! or non HIM!! make the concept.... ASAP!

b. Society devotion
nah,, di bag ini kamu jadi anggotaaa... okay.... but inget di sini kerjaannya banyak... ada survei... macem2... udah tanya ke ganies,, see what next!

c. Che Night
Pubdok.. dont know anything.. udah contact rio irawan,,see and move!

d. Chief election
divisi acara.... udah nanya ghana... wait next!


3. Lomba and exchange problems....
a. Bayer Young Environmental Envoy
* Laporan ke Pak Caska buat field trip ke jerman sama laporan proyek.. insya Allah bisa! deadline tomorrow!!!

* Script!!!!!! ASAP deadline 31 desember 2009!

b. Toefl preparation
This should be done after DSSP and PM

4. Girls problem
you know that!! fat like a pregnant girl! stupid! exercise and eat well! give time for that! you can!

Okeiii... finally,,, you have to realiza that you have more problems than ordinary people.... this is your way.... this is the way you choose.... i understand very well how you feel about this many problems... i understand... so solve it.. one by one.. organize.... maybe many people said that single figter is impossible.... but maybe this is the reality that you have now. you can only count to yourself.. because who is available everytime is yourself.... it is not wrong... really not... it is so innocent and stupid if you expect someone come to help you... it will happen... but not now... okay.... everyone is busy with his own job and tasks... you have to solve it yourself!!! because it is your problem! not other people problem! okay!!!! open your eyes get up from waiting anyone coming for help!! solve it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
now or never!